songology
“Beneath my surface, a song is rising” - Indigo Girls
Here, I have posted the lyrics to every song I’ve ever written (60+ and counting!)
Enjoy!
2004 Songs
| 1. | Drunk & High | Drunk & High
(Alternate Title: The Drunk & High Song)
© 2004 Ryan Mintz VERSE 1: I was drunk, you were high And still I can’t figure out why I’m still torn up about it When really it’s not that different Cuz here we are laughing, we both seem so happy In cell phones from miles away CHORUS: I was drunk You were high VERSE 2: I was trashed, you were stoned An as we talked into our phones We were one and the same Both playing a dangerous game Both running from something, afraid to face someone Or tired of being ourselves REPEAT CHORUS BRIDGE: Oh, but honey I’m scared for you And I’ve tried to be there for you But I hate to see you falling And I really wish you’d stop falling So I kinda wish you’d hit bottom So you can start climbing back up VERSE 3: So next time you wanna get high Or maybe you just need to cry I’ll be here day by day Cuz we don’t need that stuff anyway Cuz you’ll still be laughing, and I’ll still be happy I promise you, we’ll be just fine… when… REPEAT CHORUS (2x): I’m not drunk, and You’re not high ENDING: I was drunk, you were high And still I can’t figure out why |
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| 2. | The Ice Cream Song (For Marcus) | The Ice Cream Song (For Marcus)
© 2004 Ryan Mintz
VERSE 1: I walk around each day with this feeling in my chest Don’t know how to explain it, but it’s there because of you And I have to say I like it, it’s like I literally feel for you Cuz you’ve reached in and grabbed my heart, and now it’s screaming for me to tell you No… I can’t say that yet CHORUS: But we’ve… got… all the time in the world All our lives to feel this way We’ve got hours, months, and years Time for me to say… VERSE 2: That night at the ice cream shop when we were standing in line This feeling washed over me and brought tears to my eyes I said “look at me, I’m crying,” and you said “why?” But I couldn’t say what I wanted to, I was scared it wasn’t time And you brushed away my tears Told me I was beautiful And I damn near said it in that ice cream shop REPEAT CHORUS BRIDGE: It’s like I want to know you as fast as I can, want to know you as fast as I can It’s like there’s so much for us to do together, and so many ways for us to be together And I want it all to happen now, I want to share it all with you right now If I could just spin around and just make you mine (I would) If I could just snap my fingers and know all of you (but I will) If I could just crawl into your bed, your arms, your life, and stay there forever (like I wish) (like I wish) (like I wish) REPEAT CHORUS ENDING: … should I really be saying this? … well, I’m just gonna say… … (doesn’t matter if you don’t say it back (right now)) … but it’s time for me to say… …that I love you |
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| 3. | I Was Wrong | I Was Wrong
© 2004 Ryan Mintz
VERSE 1: I’m not gonna always be perfect I won’t always know what to say But I’m here, and I’m trying to get it all right Cuz this time, I think I might stay So feel free to ignore what I just said Cuz I wish I could take it all back I was foolishly full of myself And senselessly insensitive CHORUS: I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong … And I knew all along That I’d somehow upset you by saying those words I was wrong VERSE 2: You know that I am a Taurus Stubborn, possessive, resentful And my expectations just get in the way Cuz I’ve scripted this all in my head But it’s not that I don’t understand you Or want you just as you are Cuz you show me you love me so many times each day So for me to think that’s not enough… REPEAT CHORUS BRIDGE: I’ve always been one to say just how I feel But I wonder if I should hold back Cuz the more that I’m thinking and less that I’m talking Might teach me some subtlety and tact VERSE 3: Sometimes I think I’m just looking For someone who’s just like me Cuz I’m selfish, conceited, and think I’m the shit Yeah, I love myself dangerously But inside this heart I am insecure And scared just like anyone else And outside this heart that has judged you Was a fear that you didn’t feel the same (And of course you don’t feel the same, cuz you’re you and I’m me) REPEAT CHORUS (2x) |
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| 4. | Finding the Night | Finding the Night
© 2004 Ryan Mintz
VERSE 1: How do I know this time’s different from all the rest? How do I know anything at all? How do I settle this lump in my chest (That comes when I think of you)? Cuz every time I’ve felt this way It’s all blown up in my face VERSE 2: How do I know when I board that plane You’ll still be mine when I return? I know you said that we’ll be OK I’ve heard that line before So when I get stuck in my head I think of the words you said… CHORUS: Finding the night when the day falls apart Finding the strength to deal Finding that elusive peace inside That only comes when you’re willing to heal VERSE 3: I think I should warn you I don’t know how To do this relationship thing anymore I always get clingy, controlling and sad But I want this love so bad Through all the blocks in my head I see you calm and together… REPEAT CHORUS VERSE 4: Why can’t I remember the lessons I’ve learned? Why can’t I remember anymore? Accept the impermanence of life’s constant change Don’t try to hold on to anything Cuz everytime that I do It always breaks me in 2 VERSE 5: So here is the promise I make to you I’m gonna try harder than before Living in beauty and happiness That’s what you deserve, love Watch as my demons run A puff of smoke, and I’m done… REPEAT CHORUS |
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| 5. | Hooded Grey Sweatshirt | Hooded Grey Sweatshirt
© 2004 Ryan Mintz
CHORUS: I’ll be loving you from miles away I’ll be thinking of you every part of every day And at night I’ll be holding you (through your hooded grey sweatshirt) I never doubt our love dear But this month away might hurt… a little bit VERSE 1: It’s only been 3 months Now I won’t see you ‘til 4 And I can’t help thinking how you said Every day you love me more And these are the words I’ll take with me As our airplanes both depart So here are my words to take with you And they come straight from my heart REPEAT CHORUS VERSE 2: This isn’t the first time And it sure won’t be the last And I count my blessings every day That you’re not like those from my past Cuz when it comes to understanding You’ve got everyone beat And when it comes to supportive No one can compete REPEAT CHORUS VERSE 3: You’re better at goodbyes It’s me who always cries It’s not that I don’t trust in us I can see it in your eyes So please indulge my tears, babe And hold me oh-so-near So when the ocean parts us I’ll always have you here REPEAT CHORUS ENDING: The Midwest nights of rainfall Will join my eyes to weep But your hooded grey sweatshirt Will soothe my soul to sleep |
After a looooong dry spell, I wrote Drunk & High about a best friend going through drug addiction, and I continue to sing it as a prayer for recovery. The rest of them were about a new relationship: The Ice Cream Song was my way of saying “I love you” for the first time (and yes, I actually played the song to say it!); I Was Wrong was an apology after our first fight; Finding the Night was a song to find comfort during the initial uncertainty of a relationship; and Hooded Grey Sweatshirt was a promise to sleep with his sweatshirt while he was away in Europe. :)
“Please be careful with me
I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way” - Jewel
