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“Beneath my surface, a song is rising” - Indigo Girls


Here, I have posted the lyrics to every song I’ve ever written (60+ and counting!) 

Enjoy!

  
  • 2009 Songs
  • 2008 Songs
  • 2007 Songs
  • 2006 Songs
  • 2005 Songs
  • 2004 Songs
  • 2003 Songs
  • 2002 Songs
  • 2001 Songs
  • 2000 Songs
2009 Songs
1. Again Play
Again
© 2009 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
My tarot cards told me there’s gonna be change
So I strap in my seat belt, get ready to do it again

CHORUS:
I just figured out what my life is about
And then bam… gotta do it again

VERSE 2:
People keep asking “what’s your next move?”
Like I have all the answers, like I know what to do

And these people keep wanting for me to be the same
But that was so last year, and I like some change

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
And I’m finally realizing it’s OK
To not know what I want every day

VERSE 3:
My best friend, she called me, she’s changing careers
She said “dreams don’t need to be lifelong dreams”
They can change every couple of years

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
I’ll do it again, and again, and again, if I need to
Again, and again, and again, if I’ve got to
Again, and again, and again
I’ll do it again
I’ll do it again
Lyrics
Again
Notes
This is a ROUGH demo, recorded from my laptop. But I was so excited to get this song out there!
Info
Only 1 song so far this year, but it’s a goodie! I did a quick recording on my computer to share it with y’all. It’s called Again, and I wrote it to honor people who change their minds, their careers, their relationships, or just love to reinvent themselves.
2008 Songs
1. My Religion Play
My Religion
© 2008 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I’ve been driving for hours, gotta see my show
People think I’m crazy, such a long way to go
Maybe I’m crazy

But I’ve been saving for months just to get to this club
Just to see her on stage, just to feel I’m I love
Maybe I’m crazy

CHORUS:
But I swear, music’s my religion
When I’m there, it feels like I am praying
And I’m not the believing kind, but I’ve heard songs that change my mind
And I’ve heard lyrics speak divine… and that’s my sign

VERSE 2:
Now the lights have gone down, I raise my hands to the sky
My lips know every word, there are tears in my eyes
It’s like she knows me

Now I lose all control, gotta get up and dance
Gotta feel every note, gotta stay in this trance
Oh yeah, she has me

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
And if each religion, every sect, uses music to connect—
Gospel choir, tribal dance, eastern meditation chants
Morning mass, temple songs—why can’t we all get along?

VERSE 3:
Now the encore is done, and my feelings are raw
And I know what it feels like to believed in a god
Maybe I’m crazy

REPEAT CHORUS
Lyrics
2. Live. Love. Be. Play
Live. Love. Be.
© 2008 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Jimmy’s from a small town not too far from here
And people in this small town say “we don’t like your kind here”
And Jimmy became my small-town hero by telling those small-town minds…

CHORUS:
I’m gonna live. I’m gonna love. I’m gonna be.

VERSE 2:
Sarah’s been a city girl, she likes seeing different people all around
But Sarah and her city friends still hear people say “get back to your side of town”
But Sarah and her sisters just won’t take that anymore, they say…

REPEAT CHORUS
I’m gonna live. I’m gonna love. I’m gonna be.

BRIDGE:
Maybe it’s unrealistic anyway
But still I’m optimistic for the day

VERSE 3:
So here I am living in this big bad world
So many people and so many dreams, we all wanna just be heard
And maybe there’s room for everyone if everyone just sings…

REPEAT CHORUS
I’m gonna live. I’m gonna love. I’m gonna be.

ENDING:
I’m gonna live. I’m gonna love. I’m gonna be. (2x)
Just let me live. Just let me love. Just let me be.
Cuz I wanna live. I wanna love. I wanna be.
I’m gonna live. I’m gonna love. I’m gonna be.
Lyrics
3. Sunshine Play
Sunshine
© 2008 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I know times are tough
I know it’s a little windy outside
I know you feel swallowed up
And spit onto the sidewalk

This ain’t what you signed up for
Well hon, it rarely is
And no one’s gonna pick you up
If you don’t reach out your hand

CHORUS:
It’s okay to take some time, it’s okay to get some space
It’s okay to ask for help, and it’s okay to be afraid
You can ask for some alone time, just take the time for you
Cuz you’re the only one who knows what’s right for you
And sunshine, sunshine, you’ll be fine

VERSE 2:
So you took a risk
So you took the trail that was not marked
So you got a little lost
And you don’t know where you are

But that’s when you find yourself
And that’s when you find a friend
And that’s when you hear your thoughts
Not distracted by the noise

BRIDGE:
And I’m one of the few who will say to you
That it’s okay, it’s okay to be selfish
Cuz I know things get worse when you don’t put yourself first
And say okay, okay, I am taking care of me right now

REPEAT CHORUS
Lyrics
4. My Adventure
My Adventure
© 2008 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I’d like to go Thailand, see what the food’s really like
I hear it’s cheap over there, I can get by on 10 bucks a night
I wanna see the temples ancient, and know how the villagers live
And sleep by the ocean, and play with the children, just like my cousin did

CHORUS:
This is my adventure calling me, calling me
And you can come too

VERSE 2:
I’m goin’ to Costa Rica, I’d like to plant some trees
And see the rainforest monkeys, and all those 1000s of species
They don’t carry a military, and they value their land
How great it must be to be around people who understand

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
I’d like to live in Paris, where they love their art
I’d begin every day with croissants and a coffee, what a way to start
They sit all day at their cafés, just like me
And talk about politics, romance, and feelings… it’s like my dream

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
You can come too
You can come too
Lyrics
5. So Unconventional
So Unconventional
© 2008 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
There was a princess newly single
She didn’t do those princess thingles
She bought old clothes, she wrote down plays
She played in sports—these aren’t things for dames

Across the village lived a prince
A gentle-man who worked with kids
He climbed on rocks, he played his strings
But couldn’t find the girl for him

CHORUS:
She plays soccer, he plays songs
He is soft, and she is strong
And no one could snatch up a better match-up
…So unconventional

VERSE 2:
The thrift store princess got a call
“Meet me at the downtown ball”
She saw the prince, he saw her
The perfect misfits… there they were

He took her out to play on rocks
To see the bands play on the block
He wrote her poems, she shared her plays
They watched the sunset every day

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
They’d rather spend their Sundays writing scripts
Well I think that’s where love begins
…love begins


VERSE 3:
Now they’ve got a real good thing
A modern hippy queen and king
He strums her tunes, she makes him kale
They sit and drink organic ale

You’ll find them biking down the block
At farmer’s markets, coffee shops
It’s who they are, a boy and girl
A writer team to save the world

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
No one could snatch up a better match-up
No one could dream-up a better team-up
No one could barter a better partner
… So unconventional
Lyrics
6. Love Letter Play
Love Letter
© 2008 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Won’t you write me a love letter? Make it real good
Say all those things like a good boyfriend would
Put in your poetry, put in a surprise
Use magic marker, draw hearts on the I’s

CHORUS:
And take me away…
Take me away… to you

VERSE 2:
Won’t you write me a love letter when I’m on the road?
Cuz I’ll need a piece of you to keep in my coat
I’ll read it each morning, I’ll read it each night
You’ll be on my pillow to help me sleep tight

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Won’t you write me a love letter like I used to do?
Cuz no one has written me one… until you
I don’t got a great track record, but I promise I’ll try
There won’t be enough paper for all the love that we’ll write

REPEAT CHORUS
Lyrics

For some reason, the songs I wrote AFTER the release seem to be the crowd favorites.  It figures, huh?  They’re my favorites too, and that’s why I’m so excited to make my next album! 

My Religion was inspired at an Alanis concert, where I felt so spiritually moved, I thought “this must be what church is like.”  Live. Love. Be. was written for Pride 2008 (since I played at 7 prides nationwide).  Sunshine has got to be one of the best songs I’ve ever written; it speaks to an emotional truth I’ve been afraid to express in song.  My Adventure lists my travel dreams, and I wrote So Unconventional for my best friend’s wedding.  Love Letter is another dear song to me, as I wrote it when falling in love with my current partner.

2007 Songs
1. New Year's Eve
New Year's Eve
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
45 minutes ‘til midnight, I Google the bar and drive
15606 Joy Road, but not a bar in sight
14 minutes, I’ll never find another place in time
So I park the car, play my music, and take this as a sign

CHORUS:
Cuz it’s New Year’s Eve, and I believe that I’ve got nowhere else to be
Just on the street, a date with me, and I can do most anything
And I’ve got so much to offer, if the world would just receive
So here we go… Happy New Year’s Eve

VERSE 2:
There’s always so much pressure to be somewhere cool
Something fabulous to tell them when we’re back at work or school
But I don’t want to be with strangers or family this time
So this is my night, out on the street, by the bar I couldn’t find

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
So I’m dancing in the intersection, and feeling all the world’s affection
I spin around, and hit the ground, and start of in a new direction
The fireworks, a drum’s connection, the rainy street, a mirror’s reflection
And I play my top songs from all year long… this is what I call perfection

VERSE 3:
1 more minute ‘til midnight, I look up at the moon
Cuz I know you’re somewhere out there looking at it too
And the clouds are racing fast as they can run
As I text message you a kiss at 3, 2, 1…

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
Here we go… Happy New Year’s Eve / This is what I call perfection (5x)
Lyrics
3. Fantasy
Fantasy
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
So maybe I’m projecting, or maybe you’re protecting
But all I really want is to have you here tonight
Maybe I’m too feeling, or maybe you’re just reeling
From all of this attention you’re not used to
Maybe we just need a shot

CHORUS:
So come live in my fantasy
You’ll see it’s not that hard
To believe in the fantasy
You just let down your guard, and there you have it
So don’t get scared and please don’t run
I may be intense but I’m also fun
And I know you also want it
This fantasy

VERSE 2:
They say that I’m a dreamer, and I know that I’m a dreamer
Well I wouldn’t want it any other way
They say that you’re so smart, but that you don’t think from the heart
Well I’ve seen a lot of heart from you lately
They say that we look good together

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
You say I’m on your mind, and then you say you need your time
Well that’s just another thing I like about you
You say your life is full, and your commitment is to school
And I hope you know I wouldn’t want to change that
But I’d like to just be a part of it

REPEAT CHORUS
So let me into your fantasy…

ENDING:
Fantasy
Fantasy… it’s really not that hard, if you believe it
Lyrics
4. Open Relationship
Open Relationship
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I thought it was all going well
I thought that I knew how you felt
I thought I was the one who you thought about
I thought there was nobody else
Til you told me you’re having fun
On the side with someone
That’s when I learned about…

CHORUS:
You and your open relationship
Too soon for commitment, and all that shit
But there’s love that you hide, and there’s truth in your lies
And I don’t want to learn these rules
So I guess I’m not open enough
For this relationship

VERSE 2:
I was looking for an artist
And there you were, the artist
We stayed up talking all night long
Me with music, and you with your photos
Til you showed me the photo of
You and the one you love
That’s when I learned about…

REPEAT CHORUS
You and your open relationship
You’re free and so modern, and all that shit
But there’s love that you hide, and there’s truth in your lies
And I don’t want to learn these rules
So I guess I’m not open enough
For this relationship

BRIDGE:
Why’s it gotta work that way?
Why is this the norm today?
When all I want is to run away…
With one
Just one
Only one

VERSE 3:
So now I’m cautious as hell
Cuz the truth is you never can tell
If you’re liking the one who likes 2 or 3
This game of numbers don’t add up to me
It’s a roll of the dice these days
But there’s only one number I’ll play
And that’s not…

REPEAT CHORUS
You and your open relationship
You’re limitless, hippy-ish, all that shit
But there’s love that you hide, and there’s truth in your lies
And I don’t want to learn these rules
So I guess I’m not open enough
For this relationship
Lyrics
5. King & Queen
King & Queen
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
You’re way up in the sky
With the kings and queens
So much higher than my arms
Can even try to reach

They say we build tall things
To prove our royalty
But I can show you royal times
Down here next to me

I might not be your heaven
But I always tell the truth

CHORUS:
Let’s be the king and the queen
If you know what I mean
Let’s build a castle
From this 1-room studio
We don’t need no riches
And I’ll trade you love for horses
If you let my alter-ego
Love your alter-ego

VERSE 2:
I wish that you were real
I wish that you were here
Cuz I can’t hold a telephone
When I go to sleep

But I could drive my car
To over where you are
Or you could hop the midnight train
It’s really not that far

I know it sounds so crazy
Cuz we live in different worlds

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
I don’t have a crown to prove my worth
And you know that hurts, because
I’ve been looking to find someone like me
And that’s what you seem
I’m no knight in shining
But I’ll shine my light on you
And court you til you ride to away with me

REPEAT CHORUS
Lyrics
6. I Don't Wanna Go Back
I Don't Wanna Go Back
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Lookin’ back at the decade that’s passed, I’m finally feelin’ old
A few too many candles on the birthday cake, and what do I got to show?

PRE-CHORUS:
But hey, I’m not too old
And hey, it’s not too late

CHORUS:
I don’t wanna go back to 20, I don’t wanna be a kid
When we’re wrapped in so much drama, but look what that drama did
Hey thanks, I learned my lesson, and I don’t need to again
Cuz I don’t wanna go back

VERSE 2:
3 times to therapy, 4 times moving away
19 failed relationships, zillions of debt to pay

REPEAT PRE-CHORUS & CHORUS

VERSE 3:
So maybe I’ll buy some tight shirts, or some anti-wrinkle cream
And maybe I’ll in love again, or maybe I’ll find a new dream

REPEAT PRE-CHORUS & CHORUS
Lyrics
7. I Will Play
I Will
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Where do we go from here? (she said)
I don’t have any idea (I said)
Cuz I’m so used to moving that I can hardly stand still
But I will if you will

VERSE 2:
All our friends are getting married these days
Maybe someday we’ll start to act our age
Can we stay together while we’re seeking all our thrills?
Well I will if you will

BRIDGE:
I will if you will, if you will

VERSE 3:
Standing at the bedroom door, my bags are packed again
You’re a sleepy head in slumber, and I fall in love again
And though we’re just 2 travelers, we’ll make it work until…
And I will if you will

ENDING:
I will if you will
I will if you will

Lyrics
8. At the Cafe
At the Cafe
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I wish life was like a coffee shop, so happy and so warm
Where folks are always nice and where creative is the norm
I wish life was like a coffee shop, where you see so many kinds
The scholar and the student and the man who lost his mind

CHORUS:
Maybe life would be a little more okay
If we all lived life like at the café

VERSE 2:
I wish work was like a coffee shop, where earth tones rule the day
I feel a bit more normal when my world’s not painted grey
We’d have meetings over lattes in the purple comfy chairs
All day they play great music, and there’s no fluorescent there

CHORUS:
Maybe work would be a little more okay
If we all lived life like at the café

VERSE 3:
I wish art was like a coffee shop, where everyone’s got a spot
And no one really cares if you are mainstream or you’re not
Where she can write her screenplay, and he can sing his song
And no big corporation ever tells you that you’re wrong

CHORUS:
Maybe art would be a little more okay
If we all lived life like at the café

CHORUS:
Yeah maybe life would be a little more okay
If we all lived life like at the café

ENDING:
I wish life was like a coffee shop, so happy and so warm
Lyrics
9. Falling in Love
Falling in Love
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I missed my flight again cuz I was up all night, like I always am
Forgot to send another rent check
I’ve been blowin’ off my to do list, I hate when I do this
Cuz I get lost thinking of you all day long

CHORUS:
And this is the unhealthy part about falling in love
It’s not my head, it’s all my heart, when I’m falling in love
And I don’t wanna lose myself when I’m falling in love
… well maybe just a little

VERSE 2:
I said I’d like to spend some time in Chicago, get to know ya
Cuz I don’t have to be anywhere right now
I’m the kind of guy who’ll just stay somewhere when I feel good there
And I’m feeling good, so I guess I’m staying

CHORUS:
And this is the uncertain part about falling in love
It’s not my head, it’s all my heart, when I’m falling in love
And I don’t wanna lose myself when I’m falling in love
… well maybe just a little

BRIDGE:
I’ve always thought that I gotta go solo
To do what I want in my life
But I would like to find it, this balance
So I can have both this time

VERSE 3:
So here’s the deal, I’ve got my dreams, and you’ve got yours too
But here we feel so intensely
So how bout I write my songs, and you do your yoga, and I’ll show ya
That we can be that couple who does it our way

CHORUS:
And this is the amazing part about falling in love
It’s not my head, it’s all my heart, when I’m falling in love
And I don’t wanna lose myself when I’m falling in love
… well maybe just a little

ENDING:
Yeah maybe just a little
Cuz we’ll sure learn a lot
Lyrics
10. Good & Bad
Good & Bad
© 2007 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Show me those sad eyes, it’s alright with me
Yeah, I don’t mind if you cry in front of me
Cuz I’m all for being real, and for saying what we feel

CHORUS:
Cuz I love you good and bad, I love you unconditionally
And even when you’re sad, I want you curled up next to me
Cuz you’re like magic, and our love is holistic, and I never felt like that
I love you, I love you good and bad

VERSE 2:
I can be a nightmare, I hope that’s OK
Cuz some of the other boys got scared away
But I’m not here to impress, cuz I’m not always at my best

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
…even when you’re in a funk
I love you, I love you… even when you’re down on luck
I love you, I love you… even when I lose my temper
I love you, I love you… for all our days so just remember

ENDING:
I love you, I love you…
I love you, I love you…
I love you, I love you good and bad

Lyrics

I thought I had all my album tracks picked out in late ’06. But for some reason, I kept on writing new songs. I didn’t even want to write new material as I prepared for the record, but I’m really happy with the songs I came up with!

New Year’s Eve and Fantasy are 2 pop songs I felt moved to write.  Open Relationship is my favourite song from the CD, and expresses hurt and frustration over modern relationships that aren’t always exclusive.  King & Queen was a unique approach where I took my friends poems, emails, and even text messages—and molded them into a song about unreturned love.

After I recorded the CD, I continued to write!  I Don’t Wanna Go Back is my ode to turning 30.  I Will is my wish to the universe at finding a relationship that works with my nomadic ways.  At the Café is my happy ode to coffee shops.  Falling in Love and Good & Bad were written at the beginning of a new relationship.

 

2006 Songs
1. Your Next Step
Your Next Step
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Hey, you know me, I write them sad songs
And you need a sad song tonight
Hey, I know you, you said to write funny songs
Just shut up and deal with it, deal with what I write

CHORUS:
Cuz here I am sad for you
But I think that it’s all for the best
So tonight show your tears, we’ll look back in a year
At how this pushed you… to your next step

VERSE 2:
You said, “We fight all the time, we had our problems
But I thought it was all going fine”
Well if that’s not a joke, then I don’t know funny
Cuz I think you just gave the punchline

REPEAT CHORUS
So how can I be sad for you
When I…

BRIDGE:
Please don’t misunderstand what I’m saying
It’s your time to be sad, and you know I’d be too
All I am saying is you’re strong and beautiful
You will get through this as you have helped me to do too

VERSE 3:
How many times have you told me how busy
You are with the house and your man?
In the same breath, there’s no room for writing
So go now and use it, use the freedom in your hands
And follow your dreams as you planned

REPEAT CHORUS
How can I feel sad for you
When I…
Lyrics
2. 3 Fantasies
3 Fantasies
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

CHORUS:
Can I tell you a secret?
I have 3 fantasies about you
I don’t mind telling
But you have to tell me too

VERSE 1:
1… I want you to get on a plane with me to Europe, even though we just met tonight
And we’ll spend the summer so far away from here
The sun will wake us in our flat, we’ll practice music, and sit at the café
That’s what I want
That’s what I want

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 2:
2… I want to get a tattoo, and I want you to be there with me
And maybe that piercing that I’ve been wanting too
You look so fucking hot, I just can’t deal, and maybe I just want to be like you
That’s what I want
That’s what I want

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
3… I want to spend every night with you before I leave
But that wasn’t really 3, I just made that up right now
I’d help you to stop smoking, write those words, and put those chords together
That’s what I want…

ENDING:
That’s what I want
That’s what I want
That’s what I want
Lyrics
3. The Monkey Song
The Monkey Song
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I saw it in your hotel room on that first night, the one thing that wasn’t quite right
There was a mystery novel on your nightstand, snacks from the airport, your laptop and iPod
So it kind of stuck out… this stuffed animal sitting on your chair
And you said, “That’s my monkey, he keeps me warm at night”
(and I say…)

CHORUS:
Let me be your monkey
I’ll keep you warmer than he will
He will not cook dinners or write you songs
And I… I kiss much better than he does
He does not feel for you like I do
So let me be your monkey

VERSE 2:
There’s not many grown-ups who travel from home with a child’s toy
Like wearin’ jammies on our second date, it says so much about you
But I have to warn you: I’m the jealous type, that’s the way I am
Cuz he’s the one who’s travelin’ with you all around while I just hold my pillow
(so…)

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
So here we are inside this dreamy place (I feel so happy)
But I’m finding that it’s hard to say goodbye (don’t want it to end)
And I’m sorry that I’m havin’ trouble just enjoying this moment while we can

VERSE 3:
I know you’re not the one to share how you feel, but you can with me
And I know that you were hurt not long ago, come here and I’ll hold you
And I know your parents (just like mine) have a lot to answer for
“not much love around just money and you know what they say ‘money cant buy love’”
(so…)

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)

Lyrics
4. The Kiss We'll Never Know
The Kiss We'll Never Know
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
You hopped on the train to Paris 24 hours after I did
You said that you needed time away to think and see your family
And oh… you wanted to kiss me
(so started our…)

CHORUS:
3 days in Paris
We wanted that kiss so fucking bad
And talked about it, dreamed about it, wrote about it, did everything but…
Do you really think it’s for the best?
Well I guess it’s the kiss we’ll never know

VERSE 2:
2 of us are in this city, but 3 or 4 or more affected
They’re the ones who keep us at our distance
But the 15 inches we keep between us don’t seem like very much to me
(during our…)

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
There were so many times it could have happened
The night we walked along the Seine
The Luxembourg Gardens, or facing the Notre Dame,
The bridges where we said farewell, but…

REPEAT PARTIAL CHORUS:
Do you really think it’s for the best?
Well I guess it’s the kiss we’ll never know, never know, never…

ENDING:
Do you really think it’s for the best?
Well perhaps, it’s the kiss we’ll maybe know
So we’ll see if this kiss we’ll ever know

Lyrics
5. A Song Just Don't Exist
A Song Just Don't Exist
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
A song just don’t exist to tell you how I feel
I went searching through my iPod, but nothing did appeal
To tell you that I’m flattered, and I kinda like you too
But in this crazy moment, I don’t know what to do

VERSE 2:
A song just don’t exist to say I have a crush
But since you have a boyfriend, it can’t amount to much
So why you gotta come here to tease me like you do?
I know you’re wanting something, but will you follow through?

CHORUS:
La la la la la – la la la la – la la la la
La la la la la – la la la – la la la la la

VERSE 3:
A song just don’t exist to say the feeling’s strong
And since we only have a week, let’s just play along
We’ll act like we’re a couple, and we’ll do romantic things
And though I hate this phrase, it’s gotta be “no strings”

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 4:
A song just don’t exist to say I don’t love you
But I really really like you, so I hope that’s okay too
And this movie-style romance, well it really is a must
So I’m giving in to it, and I am giving it to us

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 5:
A song just don’t exist to say I’ll miss you so
But I’m also really angry at how you had to go
But I guess that it is perfect for this messy strange romance
And you’ll always have the part of my heart I left in France

VERSE 6 (second half only):
For the things that I have taught you, this was the perfect end
And you should know that you have taught me not to give up on love, my friend

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)
Lyrics
6. La Vie Après Paris (French)
La Vie Après Paris (French)
Alternate Title: The French Song
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Paris, je ne peux pas croire
Que c’est le temps de dire au revoir
Je suis allé pour habiter comme parisien
Mais comme qui j’habiterai prochain?

CHORUS:
La vie après Paris
Je ne sais plus qui je suis
Un voyageur? Ou un ecrivain de chansons? Ou tous les deux?
On verra… dans ma vie après Paris

VERSE 2:
Paris, tu m’as donné
Un sentiment de paix
Je pouvais faire ce que voulais faire toutes les heures
J’ai appris écouter mon coeur

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Paris, je vais pleurer
Car tu me manquerai
La Seine par midi et les cafés par nuit m’ont donnés cet air
Et là... je ne sais pas quoi faire (dans ma...)

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)
Lyrics
7. La Vie Après Paris (English)
La Vie Après Paris (English)
Alternate Title: The French Song
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Paris, I can’t believe
That it’s the time for me to leave
I came to live like Parisians live, just for a bit
So who do I live like after this?

CHORUS:
La vie après Paris
I don’t know who I should be
A traveler? Or a songwriter? Or maybe both?
We will see… in ma vie après Paris

VERSE 2:
Paris, you gave to me
A feeling of peace
Cuz I could do what I wanted to do, no holds barred
I learned to listen to my heart

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Paris, I’m gonna cry
Cuz it’s so hard to say goodbye
Cafés by noon, and the Seine by the moon gave me this tune
And voilà, I don’t know what to do (in ma…)

REPEAT CHORUS (2x – 2nd time in French)

ENDING:
Après Paris

TRANSLATION NOTES:
La vie après Paris = Life after Paris
Ma vie après Paris = My life after Paris
Voilà = Voilà :)
Lyrics
8. So Lovely
So Lovely
(Alternate Title: The Straight Guy Song)
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I want to lay next to you in the grass by the river
And rest my hand on your chest, pull your energy into mine
And feel the sandpaper rough of your cheek with the back
Of my finger, my finger down your face

CHORUS:
And though you don’t agree
It would be… so lovely

VERSE 2:
So look in my eyes and tell me your stories
And put them next to mine
Let’s see how they play together
Yeah, let’s play together

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
This has been the year of falling for the wrong kind of guy
(Neil)
(Roger)
(Amin)
(Sébastien)
And you… the straight guy, and normally I don’t go for straight guys
But with you, there was this energy, and it so confused me, and those around me
Because even they could see, in your body, when you were next to me, but…

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)

VERSE 3:
We’re standing in the black, black night, in our winter hats, with our leftover beers
And our pant-legs are so close… and I almost think you want me
Cuz there you go telling stories about all of the girls who you
Just couldn’t stay with… but you can stay with me
(tonight)

REPEAT CHORUS (3x)

ENDING:
…So lovely
Lyrics
9. Arapahoe Road
Arapahoe Road
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I’m packin’ up all my stuff
Won’t need it for a while
I’ve got brown boxes, some packing tape
And a moving truck out on the drive
Cuz it’s goin’ in a storage unit on Arapahoe Road

VERSE 2:
It’s 8x8 with a metal gate
And a lock to which I hold the key
So I take my backpack, guitar and laptop
The rest… I won’t need
So it’s time to hit that road with what I can carry

CHORUS:
Cuz I don’t have no house now
And I don’t have no home
But all I need is here with me
The rest is in that box out on Arapahoe Road (out on Arapahoe Road)

VERSE 3:
I’m movin’ round to each new town
This is how to be
But every season I find a reason
To swap a thing or three
It’s a mighty long way to my closet, but that’s okay

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
And I… don’t want to be defined
But what I own or what I buy
And I like dreamin’ of the day I’ll settle down
But I don’t need to worry bout that now

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
Out on Arapahoe Road
Out on Arapahoe Road
Out on Arapahoe Road

Is it…
Select, attain, collect, maintain
Have, show, watch, use, wear
Or…
Connect, see, reflect, be
Explore, grow, create, love, share
Lyrics
10. Emily
Emily
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Emily sits at the bus stop in her shiny yellow dress
Even the jet black panty hose can’t hide the bruises on her legs
As the flesh burns on the street, she goes to take her seat
It’s too late to rescue Emily

VERSE 2:
Emily needed a place downtown to shower between jobs
Her studio on the east side is far too many stops
And now Emily’s so tired, she missed her stop at Pershing Square
It’s too late to rescue Emily

CHORUS:
It’s too late to rescue Emily
Cuz the 20 stuck in her thrift store shoe won’t get her very far
And it’s only in her dreams that she will make it in California
It’s too late to rescue Emily

VERSE 3:
By the time she reaches her doorstep, the sky is liquid cobalt blue
And the sirens keep her from sleeping as the daylight hits her room
And Emily’s so lonely that the cockroach is her friend
It’s too late to rescue Emily

REPEAT CHORUS
(Cuz the 20-pack of mac n’ cheese won’t get her very far)

VERSE 4:
Emily calls from a payphone with her only quarter left
And Emily pierces my mind as I board the Greyhound west
I don’t know how I’ll find her, but I’ll find her just in time
Cuz… It’s not too late to rescue Emily

REPEAT CHORUS
It’s not too late to rescue Emily
Cuz the 20-dollar one-ways can take us pretty far
I’ll do everything I can to help you make it in California
But right now, it’s time to rescue Emily

ENDING:
Yeah, it’s not too late to rescue Emily
It’s never too late to rescue…
Lyrics
11. My Will
My Will
© 2006 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
When I die, don’t dress me up in a suit (oh, no)
When I die, just put me in my favourite jeans & t-shirt
And when I die, it’s OK to cry for a bit
But also dance and sing

VERSE 2:
When I die, please play my favourite music
When it’s my time, please show the things that I made with my hands
I don’t need fancy flowers or a speech from a man who don’t know me
The ones I love could talk much better ‘bout me anyway

CHORUS:
Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm
Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm

VERSE 3:
When I die, I want my best friends to be the ones looking through my things
Cuz there might be secrets that only they should find (mm mm mm)
You don’t have to keep my stuff, but give it to someone who needs it
And recycle all the rest

BRIDGE:
Then come together to celebrate life, yeah come together to celebrate life
Come together to celebrate… your lives

You can wear yellow or red, purple or green, to celebrate life
You can tell stories, play games, or run through the trees, to celebrate life

Just come together to celebrate life, oh celebrate life
Come together to celebrate… your lives

VERSE 4:
When I die, I want you to go on living life
But it would be nice if you would smile and talk about me, sing my songs
And you can give my money to activists, artists, and animals
(If there’s any left)

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)

ENDING:
When I die, don’t come dressed in a suit (oh, no)
When I die, just come in your favourite jeans & t-shirt
Lyrics

Definitely, 2006 features my most exciting and mature songs to date.  The lessons I learned at Song School are woven into these songs: image-based lyrics, rhythmic variety, and flowing melodies.  This is the year I learned how to incorporate humour into my songs (to Meredith’s delight!) and wrote my first song in a foreign language.

Your Next Step was a message to a friend going through a breakup, and 3 Fantasies confesses unspoken desires felt towards a new crush.  The Monkey Song is what Anna Maria calls my “hit song” and really jumpstarted the whole energy behind recording the demo and full-length CD (and you can see, it has made quite an impact on my whole visual theme!).  The Kiss We’ll Never Know, A Song Just Don’t Exist, and La Vie Après Paris were written about some experiences while living in Paris for the summer.  So Lovely is about having a crush on a straight guy, and was influenced by a lot of improv, vocal, and rhythm work I did at Song School.  Arapahoe Road is an upbeat song about my life on the road while my possessions sit in a storage unit.  Emily was a songwriting experiment twisted from a friend's story (I’m particularly excited that I finally get to join my songwriting heroes in writing a song titled after a female name!  Take a look, they all have a "Mary" or "Jane" or "Annie" ... Oh yes, I have arrived).  And My Will is a sweet ditty describing how I want my affairs handled when I die (no really, it’s uplifting, not sad!).

2005 Songs
1. A Pretty Good Year
A Pretty Good Year
© 2005 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
What can I say to you on this day I haven’t said before?
What good are all the words when the feeling matters more?
We’ve seen this day for so long now, slowly growing near
And as I’m looking back now, I’d say… It’s been a pretty good year

CHORUS:
A pretty good ye-eee-eee-ear
A pretty good ye-eee-ear

VERSE 2:
It’s 3:51am on 3/25 plus 365
Not knowing what I should do for you, I left it for tonight
And though my words aren’t glamorous, I hope message is clear
The time since I met you, love, I’d say has been… a pretty good year

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
And when I say “pretty good”
I really mean “really good”
In that poetic sort of “good”
And even when it’s not good
We work to make it all good
And that’s how I know you’re good for me… for good

VERSE 3:
I can’t wait til tomorrow
When we’re in the “now + here”
The chaos and craziness over
The day that starts… another good year

REPEAT CHORUS
Another good year
Another good year

REPEAT CHORUS
A pretty good year
A pretty good year
Lyrics
2. The Fag & Dyke Song
The Fag & Dyke Song
© 2005 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
We heard it in the schoolyard
We heard it in the gym
We heard it when you laughed at her
We heard it when you teased him
We heard it 10 years later when we struggled with your lies
For you those words are gone now, (but for us) the echo never dies

CHORUS:
We’re takin’ back ‘fag’
We’re takin’ back ‘dyke’
We reclaim these words as part of our fight
We’re not afraid to redefine your dirty ugly words
Cuz when we use them with PRIDE
Your words no longer hurt

VERSE 2:
We hear it on the talk show
We hear it on the street
We hear it at the restaurant when waiting for a seat
We hear it from the windows as a car goes screaming by
We hear it muttered under breaths, I don’t understand why
(If you want to say it, just SCREAM it…)

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
There’s countless slurs and slanders for race and age and sex
We try so hard to fight each one, but another comes up next
So I say let’s embrace them like our very own pet name
“Hello fine fag!” – “Hey, darlin’ dyke!”
We beat them at their game!

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
So say it at the workplace
Say it on TV
Say it to my grandma as we’re sitting down to tea
Use it in a love letter
Or as my nickname too
But if you’re gonna use it…
I’m gonna use it too!
Lyrics
3. Box of Bitterness
Box of Bitterness
© 2005 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I have a box
Hidden up on the top shelf
Inside is you
And that certificate from city hall

CHORUS:
I don’t want to throw away this box
Even though I try to trash the memories in my mind
But you know, sometimes I like some sadness
That’s when I look inside this box of bitterness

VERSE 2:
I remember when we went to brunch
And we came back… married
We didn’t mean to
It seemed a good idea at the time

VERSE 3:
Cuz when we walked by city hall
The crowd cheered each newlywed couple that came out the door
We got choked up
Hey… it’s the 16th, so why not?

PRE-CHORUS 1:
So we got in line to wait all afternoon
We’ll have our papers soon

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
Sometime around midnight, we got back from brunch
With matches from the restaurant and a Polaroid of your mom drunk,
Last-minute Hallmark cards, a hand-picked daisy,
That pamphlet from City Hall on “How to Start Making Babies”
I started printing emails, cuz word had traveled fast
While you framed our certificate… so it would last

PRE-CHORUS 2:
The sky was light when you said, “Let’s get to bed”
And here’s a box for this stuff of newlyweds

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 4:
6 months later I drove south for a week
When I got back, you and your stuff were all gone
The note said “You can have what’s left…
I just can’t do the monogamy thing”

PRE-CHORUS 3:
As I looked around, my heart began to ache
There’s one thing you didn’t take…

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)
Lyrics

This is a year of wide variety in style.  A Pretty Good Year is an anniversary song.  The Fag & Dyke Song is a country song (yes, country) urging people to embrace those taboo words, so they aren’t seen as hurtful anymore.  And Box of Bitterness is a story song, where I took on the “character” of a friend, and wrote his story of getting married and dumped in the same year.  It’s the one song that made Anna Maria cry when I played all 50 songs for her one afternoon to help select tracks for the debut album!  As twisted as it may sound, I love it when my songs make people cry.

2004 Songs
1. Drunk & High
Drunk & High
(Alternate Title: The Drunk & High Song)
© 2004 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I was drunk, you were high
And still I can’t figure out why
I’m still torn up about it
When really it’s not that different
Cuz here we are laughing, we both seem so happy
In cell phones from miles away

CHORUS:
I was drunk
You were high

VERSE 2:
I was trashed, you were stoned
An as we talked into our phones
We were one and the same
Both playing a dangerous game
Both running from something, afraid to face someone
Or tired of being ourselves

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
Oh, but honey I’m scared for you
And I’ve tried to be there for you
But I hate to see you falling
And I really wish you’d stop falling
So I kinda wish you’d hit bottom
So you can start climbing back up

VERSE 3:
So next time you wanna get high
Or maybe you just need to cry
I’ll be here day by day
Cuz we don’t need that stuff anyway
Cuz you’ll still be laughing, and I’ll still be happy
I promise you, we’ll be just fine… when…

REPEAT CHORUS (2x):
I’m not drunk, and
You’re not high

ENDING:
I was drunk, you were high
And still I can’t figure out why
Lyrics
2. The Ice Cream Song (For Marcus)
The Ice Cream Song (For Marcus)
© 2004 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I walk around each day with this feeling in my chest
Don’t know how to explain it, but it’s there because of you
And I have to say I like it, it’s like I literally feel for you
Cuz you’ve reached in and grabbed my heart, and now it’s screaming for me to tell you
No… I can’t say that yet

CHORUS:
But we’ve… got… all the time in the world
All our lives to feel this way
We’ve got hours, months, and years
Time for me to say…

VERSE 2:
That night at the ice cream shop when we were standing in line
This feeling washed over me and brought tears to my eyes
I said “look at me, I’m crying,” and you said “why?”
But I couldn’t say what I wanted to, I was scared it wasn’t time
And you brushed away my tears
Told me I was beautiful
And I damn near said it in that ice cream shop

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
It’s like I want to know you as fast as I can, want to know you as fast as I can
It’s like there’s so much for us to do together, and so many ways for us to be together
And I want it all to happen now, I want to share it all with you right now
If I could just spin around and just make you mine (I would)
If I could just snap my fingers and know all of you (but I will)
If I could just crawl into your bed, your arms, your life, and stay there forever
(like I wish) (like I wish) (like I wish)

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
… should I really be saying this?
… well, I’m just gonna say…
… (doesn’t matter if you don’t say it back (right now))
… but it’s time for me to say…
…that I love you
Lyrics
3. I Was Wrong
I Was Wrong
© 2004 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I’m not gonna always be perfect
I won’t always know what to say
But I’m here, and I’m trying to get it all right
Cuz this time, I think I might stay

So feel free to ignore what I just said
Cuz I wish I could take it all back
I was foolishly full of myself
And senselessly insensitive

CHORUS:
I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong
… And I knew all along
That I’d somehow upset you by saying those words
I was wrong

VERSE 2:
You know that I am a Taurus
Stubborn, possessive, resentful
And my expectations just get in the way
Cuz I’ve scripted this all in my head

But it’s not that I don’t understand you
Or want you just as you are
Cuz you show me you love me so many times each day
So for me to think that’s not enough…

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
I’ve always been one to say just how I feel
But I wonder if I should hold back
Cuz the more that I’m thinking and less that I’m talking
Might teach me some subtlety and tact

VERSE 3:
Sometimes I think I’m just looking
For someone who’s just like me
Cuz I’m selfish, conceited, and think I’m the shit
Yeah, I love myself dangerously

But inside this heart I am insecure
And scared just like anyone else
And outside this heart that has judged you
Was a fear that you didn’t feel the same
(And of course you don’t feel the same, cuz you’re you and I’m me)

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)
Lyrics
4. Finding the Night
Finding the Night
© 2004 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
How do I know this time’s different from all the rest?
How do I know anything at all?
How do I settle this lump in my chest
(That comes when I think of you)?

Cuz every time I’ve felt this way
It’s all blown up in my face

VERSE 2:
How do I know when I board that plane
You’ll still be mine when I return?
I know you said that we’ll be OK
I’ve heard that line before

So when I get stuck in my head
I think of the words you said…

CHORUS:
Finding the night when the day falls apart
Finding the strength to deal
Finding that elusive peace inside
That only comes when you’re willing to heal

VERSE 3:
I think I should warn you I don’t know how
To do this relationship thing anymore
I always get clingy, controlling and sad
But I want this love so bad

Through all the blocks in my head
I see you calm and together…

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 4:
Why can’t I remember the lessons I’ve learned?
Why can’t I remember anymore?
Accept the impermanence of life’s constant change
Don’t try to hold on to anything

Cuz everytime that I do
It always breaks me in 2

VERSE 5:
So here is the promise I make to you
I’m gonna try harder than before
Living in beauty and happiness
That’s what you deserve, love

Watch as my demons run
A puff of smoke, and I’m done…

REPEAT CHORUS
Lyrics
5. Hooded Grey Sweatshirt
Hooded Grey Sweatshirt
© 2004 Ryan Mintz

CHORUS:
I’ll be loving you from miles away
I’ll be thinking of you every part of every day
And at night I’ll be holding you
(through your hooded grey sweatshirt)
I never doubt our love dear
But this month away might hurt… a little bit

VERSE 1:
It’s only been 3 months
Now I won’t see you ‘til 4
And I can’t help thinking how you said
Every day you love me more

And these are the words I’ll take with me
As our airplanes both depart
So here are my words to take with you
And they come straight from my heart

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 2:
This isn’t the first time
And it sure won’t be the last
And I count my blessings every day
That you’re not like those from my past

Cuz when it comes to understanding
You’ve got everyone beat
And when it comes to supportive
No one can compete

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
You’re better at goodbyes
It’s me who always cries
It’s not that I don’t trust in us
I can see it in your eyes

So please indulge my tears, babe
And hold me oh-so-near
So when the ocean parts us
I’ll always have you here

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
The Midwest nights of rainfall
Will join my eyes to weep
But your hooded grey sweatshirt
Will soothe my soul to sleep
Lyrics

After a looooong dry spell, I wrote Drunk & High about a best friend going through drug addiction, and I continue to sing it as a prayer for recovery.  The rest of them were about a new relationship: The Ice Cream Song was my way of saying “I love you” for the first time (and yes, I actually played the song to say it!); I Was Wrong was an apology after our first fight; Finding the Night was a song to find comfort during the initial uncertainty of a relationship; and Hooded Grey Sweatshirt was a promise to sleep with his sweatshirt while he was away in Europe. :)

2003 Songs
1. A Boy Who Would Sing to Me
A Boy Who Would Sing to Me
© 2003 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Pick up your guitar and play
You know I’ve been waiting all day to hear you…
Dash out another tune
Your music is strong, and your lyrics are true

PRE CHORUS 1:
And there’s nothing in this world I’d rather do
Than to sit here making music with you

CHORUS:
I’d rather be blind, I’d rather be poor
If I could just hear your tune once more
I’d rather be stranded with no other choice
Than to listen to your soft voice
I’ve said it a million times
There’s just one thing I’m looking to find…
A boy who would sing to me.

VERSE 2:
Come sit down at the piano
You know I love to see your hands go down the keys…
As you’re singin’ my song
I’ve waited for this, yes I’ve waited so long

PRE CHORUS 2:
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Than right next to you singin’ back to me

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Lay with me in the dark
You know how to win my heart now as you…
Sing me to sleep again
It’s just like a dream, baby don’t let it end

PRE CHORUS 3:
And there’s no one in this world I’d rather love
You’re the one that I’ve been always dreaming of

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
A boy who would sing to me.
A boy who would sing to me.
Lyrics
2. Passion & Pain
Passion & Pain
© 2003 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
You called me on the phone last night. Your voice was strangely low.
Another night of crying, another wound to show.
When you gonna realize that you’ve got to let it go?
A person’s gotta change, if that person wants to grow.

PRE-CHORUS 1:
So I listen to your problems, listen to your pain,
And hope that this time sparks the change.

CHORUS:
So much passion, so much pain. Why’s it come in pairs?
I want you to know happiness, that there’s someone here who cares.
Such high expectations, deep down you’re just like me.
The ones who feel the deepest taste the bitter with the sweet.

VERSE 2:
So here I am in Utah with a cheap motel room view,
One night away from home, one day away to you.
I know it must be really bad if you’ve called me all this way.
I’ll help to keep your spirits up, but can I chase the hurt away?

PRE-CHORUS 2:
So I hear your stories, as a best friend does,
And hope that when I leave it don’t go back to how it was.

REPEAT CHORUS:
So much passion, so much pain. Why’s it come in pairs?
I want you to know happiness, that there’s someone here who cares.
Such high expectations, deep down you’re just like me.
The ones who feel the deepest taste the bitter with the sweet.

VERSE 3:
Tonight we picked up pieces of that picture frame you broke.
Sweeping up the mess seemed to bring a ray of hope.
You’ve really come so far now since that dark and scary night.
You’re standing up for you now. You’re doing what feels right.

PRE-CHORUS 2:
So when I leave tomorrow, I know you’ll be okay.
You told me yourself… it’s “day by day.”

REPEAT CHORUS:
So much passion, so much pain. Why’s it come in pairs?
I want you to know happiness, that there’s someone here who cares.
Such high expectations, deep down you’re just like me.
The ones who feel the deepest taste the bitter with the sweet.

ENDING:
Simple in our complexity, deep down we’re just the same.
The ones who feel the deepest, take the passion with the pain.
Lyrics
3. Colorado Sky
Colorado Sky
© 2003 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Colorado, why’d you fail me? I put my faith in you.
Colorado, why’d you hurt me? I did the best I could do.
I came with open mind, and I came with open heart.
All I wanted was a brand new start.

Colorado, I have missed you like you would not believe.
I walk the streets a-wondering why I ever had to leave.
The day I drove out of town, the rain came pouring down.
We cried together, a sad and simple sound.

CHORUS:
I’ve been to 20 countries and 30 states or so.
But nothing comes as close as the comfort you have shown.
And while there’s beauty everywhere, I always come to find:
There’s nothing quite so blue as the Colorado sky.

VERSE 2:
Colorado, months have passed since all those sad farewells.
I have to say that I’m feeling guilty at thriving somewhere else.
I didn’t want to go, and I never meant to stay,
And now I’m settled somewhere far away.

But Colorado, if you saw me, I know that you’d be proud.
The things you taught me stayed with me as I faced a whole new crowd.
I’m trying brand new things, and I’m reaching all my goals.
So why is it so hard to let you go?

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
How can I explain it? When I’m with you, I feel free.
Cuz the closer I get to Colorado, the closer I get to me.

VERSE 3:
Colorado, I still come see you whenever I have time.
You know I can’t stay gone too long. Perhaps that is a sign?
Cuz deep inside of me, I know we’re meant to be.
So please be patient… I’ll be back, you’ll see.

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
There’s magic in the air here… I know the reason why:
There’s nothing quite so blue as the Colorado sky.
Lyrics
4. The Truth Is...
The Truth Is...
© 2003 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
The truth is… I feel really bad about myself.
The truth is… I think about suicide.
The truth is… I drink to avoid problems,
and I’m tempted to do so when things become bad.

The truth is… I feel my family has abandoned me
emotionally, and still treat me as a kid.
When they tell me that I’m making bad decisions,
I feel incapable of deciding at all.

CHORUS:
Why do they hurt me? Then run and desert me?
They can’t see what they do to me… at all.

VERSE 2:
The truth is… When my fam does not support me,
My energy and self-esteem drain away.
The truth is… When they “help,” it just hinders.
I don’t want to talk to my family anymore.

The truth is… My friends are the ones who
support, understand, and help me each day.
The truth is… I’m afraid to leave behind
this amazing support system I have.

BRIDGE:
The truth is… I’m emotionally unstable,
and any negative energy pushes me closer to break.
The truth is… I’m scared,
confused, and I feel worthless.
The truth is… I’m in therapy to deal with this stuff.

VERSE 3:
The truth is… I’m completely honest and open with
friends, but with family, I hide my true self.
The truth is… I wish I could be more open with them
… without judgment, criticism or disrespect.

The truth is… My friends cannot fathom why
I have put up with this for so long.
The truth is… I don’t have an answer.
I guess that is how it has always been.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 4:
The truth is… My family doesn’t care about my personal and
creative achievements, if they don’t earn me cash.
The truth is… I feel my emotional
health is more important than my bank account.

The truth is… I’ve been feeling incapable of
handling life. It’s been really hard.
The truth is… If you have no positive energy to
offer me, I’d rather not hear from you now.

BRIDGE 2:
The truth is… I am beautiful,
talented, loving, and caring,
sensitive, creative,
responsible and empathetic.
The truth is… I believe in myself… sometimes.
Lyrics
5. Signals Mix
Signals Mix
© 2003 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
It’s sunrise in the city, the time we part our ways,
Forget this ever happened, and move on with our days.
I know we’ve started something, cuz my mind just won’t shut up.
I’m glad we had our moment, but our moments end abrupt.

CHORUS:
One minute you want me, the next you push away.
But still I go pursuing you. Oh, the silly games we play.
Cuz if today you’re holding me closely, then tonight you let me fall,
Well, I don’t know how long I’ll stay here for, cuz your signals mix so well.

VERSE 2:
It’s putting me through agony, seeing you each day again,
Pretending nothing happened, so no one knows our sin.
Your secret pokes and glances start to build my hope,
But each night when you turn me down, I lose the will to cope.

REPEAT CHORUS
One minute you want me, the next you push away.
But still I go pursuing you. Oh, the silly games we play.
Cuz if today you’re holding me closely, then tonight you let me fall,
Well, I don’t know how long I’ll stay here for, cuz your signals mix so well.

BRIDGE:
And I see you’re a romantic, cuz baby I’m one too.
So please don’t say those things you say, cuz it’s makin’ me fall for you.

VERSE 3:
The sun filters through the blinds, and still you’re sleeping sound.
There’s a space laid out between us. What a lonely feeling now.
There’s a picture staring at me from the corner of your shelf,
And I remember how you told me, you’re in love with someone else.

So I start to leave your bedroom, when you open up your eyes,
Do you even want me here now? I see your struggle inside.
So I’ll make your choice a bit easier, and I’ll just be on my way.
I’ll lay off with my phone calls. The move is yours to make.

REPEAT CHORUS
One minute you want me, the next you push away.
But still I go pursuing you. Oh, the silly games we play.
Cuz if today you’re holding me closely, then tonight you let me fall,
Well, I don’t know how long I’ll stay here for, cuz your signals mix so well.
Lyrics
6. Every Couple of Days
Every Couple of Days
© 2003 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Every couple of days, we’re back where we started.
Every couple of days, I’m back here alone.
Every couple of days, you’re in love with him again.
So every couple of days, you decide to ignore me for another couple of days.

Every couple of days, I think we should end it.
My friends keep telling me to just walk away.
Then every couple of days, you do something that draws me back in.
So every couple of days, I decide to wait it out for another couple of days.

BRIDGE:
I don’t wanna keep asking, should I go or should I stay?
Or wonder if we’ll be lasting more than a couple of days…

VERSE 2:
Every couple of days you come down for coffee.
I sit and read while you sit and write your script.
So every couple of days, I think that this is working.
You said it couldn’t happen, but it’s been happenin’ for more than a couple of days.

Every couple of days, you finally touch me.
But when you do, I know you’re feeling guilt.
So that should be my cue to exit frame for good.
Just write me out of your scene, because I can’t go through this every couple of days.

REPEAT BRIDGE:
I don’t wanna keep asking, should I go or should I stay?
Or wonder if we’ll be lasting more than a couple of days…
Lyrics

Looking at these songs, I think the overall theme was wanting what we don't have.  A Boy Who Would Sing to Me is my romantic vision for a partner who’s as musically charged as I am.  Passion & Pain is a woeful tale of a 15-hour drive to go help a friend in need, and is Jim’s favourite song of mine.  I love Colorado Sky because I used personification to "talk" to the state that has meant so much to my life, my growth, and my happiness.  The Truth Is... is an ultra-personal journal entry from a very difficult transition in my life that I later turned into an experimental song.  Signals Mix and Every Couple of Days were written about a frustrating relationship where the guy just couldn’t commit and kept changing his mind about what he wanted.

2002 Songs
1. Water Rushing
Water Rushing
© 2002 Ryan Mintz

CHORUS:
The water’s rushing through your hands, but you simply can’t hold on.
No matter how hard you try, you can taste it, then it’s gone.
And just like tears we cry, if you learn to let them flow,
Then you’ve learned my greatest challenge… the power to let go.

VERSE 1:
We had a cup of coffee, discussed your changing life.
I heard these words escape your mouth, and I knew you’d be alright.
You painted me an image that I won’t soon forget.
I grabbed my pen and paper to capture what you said. You said…

REPEAT CHORUS
(…the freedom to let go)

VERSE 2:
I was once where you are, but these were not words I knew.
I can see you’re well beyond your years for a man of 22.
You speak of life and love with a mindful moving air,
But when I felt pain like your pain, the loss I couldn’t bear. ‘Til I learned…

REPEAT CHORUS
(…the struggle to let go)

VERSE 3:
We read of spirituality. We listen to our songs.
We’re searching for the answers that graced us all along.
For those who aren’t aware, well I hope they hear our plea:
You must let go of those you love in order to be free.

ENDING:
Yeah, you’ve learned my greatest lesson:
The power to let go. The struggle to let go. The freedom to…
Lyrics
2. Just Don't Ask
Just Don't Ask
© 2002 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I dread the words “how are you?” that face me every day.
The people ask concern-ed, but at times I’d rather not say.
It’s such a simple question, with a not-so-simple reply.
Are you here to listen? Or are you just being polite?

CHORUS:
Just… don’t… ask.
I’ll tell you when things get better.
As long as you’re here, let’s make one thing quite clear:
Just… don’t… ask.

VERSE 2:
Yeah, so please don’t ask “how are you?” as if you didn’t know.
The answer won’t be different, ‘cuz I’m still feeling low.
I have this need for honesty, and I won’t tell you a lie.
So if I just change the topic, you’ll know the reason why.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Some people ask “how are you?” without a second thought,
When really they’re indifferent if you’re doing well or not.
I hate the scripted dialogue, and the fakeness it demands.
Cuz if they knew how I really felt, then they’d never ask again.

REPEAT CHORUS

REPEAT CHORUS WITH NEW LYRICS:
…Just… don’t… ask
I’ll tell you when things get better
I was hoping we could concentrate on what’s good.
So just… don’t… ask.

ENDING:
I realize you care, and I’m thankful, I swear.
But just… don’t… ask.
Lyrics
3. So Personally
So Personally
© 2002 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
You go into the corner of your room,
And sit there ‘til you’ve washed away the gloom.
You still haven’t learned that it’s not all about you,
And the things you take so personally were meant for other crew.

CHORUS:
So go ahead and cry. Let them all feel sorry for you.
Go ahead and cry, if that’s the way you solve your problems.
And I’ll stand by your side, waiting for the time
You turn your tears to towers of strength.

VERSE 2:
You walk onto the set that you have chose.
Your life is filled with glamour, I suppose.
You call me up complaining about a life that most would die for.
But still there’s something missing. With you, there always is.

BRIDGE:
Mmm… so personally

VERSE 3:
Everyone’s pursuing their own dream,
Fighting for their vision to be seen.
They say you need a thicker skin, but you’re the one with soul.
Whether you will make it there is all in your control.

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
Mmm… so personally. You really shouldn’t take things…
Lyrics
4. Something to Me
Something to Me
© 2002 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
The calendar page reminded me of a day that I’d rather forget,
The day that brought your face to me, and it still hasn’t left me yet.
Although the time has passed, I still look through the glass,
But the picture I see is not familiar to me. It got twisted in the mess.

CHORUS:
I thought you meant something to me.
Then I come to find you’re not all you seem.
Cuz if the magic we had could disappear so fast,
Then I guess you’re not someone who means something to me.

VERSE 2:
It’s autumn in the city; there’s something in the air.
As the leaves are falling, people are falling in love everywhere.
This is the time of year when the wind whispers your name in my ear,
And I’m hearing the notes of all the music we wrote, and wond’rin’ why you’re not here.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Your image came last night to me in a dream that’s overdue.
As our paths crossed on the street, I stopped to look at you.
But you didn’t even see the person that was me,
And that’s how I know that it’s time to let go, and set the past free.

REPEAT CHORUS
Lyrics
5. Find Myself
Find Myself
© 2002 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Sometimes I ask myself what I’m doing here
Sometimes I feel it’s just not me
A man drives by in his flashy car
A woman screams for her Hollywood star

Sometimes the people are so cruel
Sometimes career is more important than making a friend
“Let’s make plans; I think you’re cool”
Phone never rings, and then guess who’s the fool

PRE-CHORUS 1:
But it’s not that I’m giving up yet
I just don’t want to get lost in here, so…

CHORUS:
I’m here to find myself in the pieces that scattered
Cuz nobody else can make me feel like I matter
Starting over is never quite easy
I’m here to find myself

VERSE 2:
Sometimes I wonder why I left that place
Sometimes I miss it all so much
The man who smiled on the street one day
The woman who chatted with me at the café

Oftentimes I felt like I belonged there
Oftentimes I had so many friends around
“Let’s go hiking or sing some tunes,
Dance all night or talk all afternoon”

PRE-CHORUS 2:
But it’s not that I won’t be back
I just need to bring those things here with me, so…

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Sometimes I question if I’ll ever have
Everything I want all at once
A man who’ll love me and my dream career
A woman who’ll listen and my family near

But everytime I get lost in these circles
Of dreaming in the future and the past
I see the place where I’m standing now
Can the peace within combat the pain all around?

PRE-CHORUS 3:
And it’s not that I don’t know who I am
I just need to take a step forward again, so…

REPEAT CHORUS – 2x
Lyrics

2002 was a year of transition from Colorado to California.  Throwing myself into the film biz certainly limited my time to write songs, but the ones I did write cover the range of emotions I experienced that year.  Water Rushing was an attempt to capture a spiritual metaphor described by a friend: that letting go of emotions is like water passing through your hands.  Just Don’t Ask is Meredith’s favourite song; she likes the tongue-in-cheek humour as I forbid the listener from asking that everyday question “How are you?”  So Personally was sparked by a meanie crew member who made me cry on set one day, and the realization that I would have to toughen up to make it in the film biz.  All of my romantic relationships up to this point had started in the fall, and Something to Me captured the rush of feelings I encountered each year as these dates approached.  And Find Myself is a self-musing about why the heck I left lovely Boulder for the craziness of LA!

2001 Songs
1. It's Over
It's Over
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
We gave it a try; now it’s time for goodbye,
But it’s hard to believe that it’s over.
We knew it was wrong, but we kept right along,
So I guess it is best that it’s over.

So why do I cry and feel bad inside?
I don’t need a man to love me.
I know who I am, and I know what I want,
And I will not give up ‘til I find it.

VERSE 2:
At night I can’t sleep, and I’m left here to weep
As I miss having you right beside ---- me.
Our days hand in hand and the years that we planned
Make me wish I still had you beside ---- me.

But you and I know it was time to let go.
We weren’t made to last forever.
Our lives were sublime for a moment in time,
But our love could not keep us together.

VERSE 3:
Now it’s time to be strong and attempt to move on.
I won’t let my soul sink to blackness.
I’ll take time for me, grasp this feeling of free,
And try to make sense of the madness.

Though I may cry, I cannot let slide,
The strength I have built up inside me.
I know I will find with the passing of time
That Love will again shine upon me.

ENDING:
We gave it a try; now it’s time for goodbye,
But it’s hard to believe that it’s over.
Lyrics
2. Running Away (Leaving Here)
Running Away (Leaving Here)
© 2001 Ryan Mintz


VERSE 1:
So you’re leaving here. You’re hardly thinking clear,
But you know you won’t be happy here.
You say the reason’s me, why your soul must flee,
But your heart will still be trapped here; you’re not free.

CHORUS:
You’re just running, running away.
There’s nothing left now to say.
As hard as we tried, our dreams have all died.
And there’s no reason for you to stay.

VERSE 2:
So you can’t let go of dreams and future hope,
But our differences were plenty, we both know.
You say you don’t agree with my decision to be free.
Then why you never stopped it, I can’t see.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
It’s only been eight days, but now your mind is made.
Do you really have to go so far away?
Wasn’t I to be the one with whom you’d flee?
So if that’s still how you feel, just ask me…

“THE DREAM” CHORUS:
And we’ll be running, running away
With all of our lives left to say
We have decided to let our dreams thrive.
And there’s no reason I wouldn’t stay.

Just come to my door, ask me to be yours,
And make this my happiest day

VERSE 4:
Awake now from the dream. As real as it may seem,
You won’t be comin’ ‘round to play that scene,
So I let you go, and hope you always know
That you’ll always be loved. You’re not alone
Lyrics
3. Wounded
Wounded
© 2001 Ryan Mintz


I am wounded. I am fragile. -- I base my happiness in others.
I have high expectations. -- I continually get let down.
I hold on to the past. -- I feel everything deeply.

I always want more. I try too hard. I am resistant to change.
I look to others for validation. -- I am self-absorbed.
I am open, and I expect openness. I am direct, and I scare people off.
I am serious, and I forget to laugh. I am intense, and I forget to relax.

I am single-minded, and I lose focus. I am a dreamer.
I don’t live in the present. I don’t accept my problems.
-- I’m losing hope. I don’t want to change.
I’m content with the pain and sadness. --
I’m happy the way I am.
Lyrics
4. Every Day is Someday
Every Day is Someday
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
Someday I’ll figure out my life. Someday the path will be clear.
Someday I’ll finally settle down. Someday I’ll have my career.

CHORUS:
Just when I’m starting to doubt……... That’s when I figure it out
That every day is someday…… Every day is someday
Yeah, every day is someday…… This could be mine

VERSE 2 & 3:
Someday I’ll travel ‘round the world. Someday I’ll live someplace new.
Someday I’ll overcome the loss. Someday I’ll let go of you.

Cuz someday I’ll find that deep connection, a friend who will understand.
And someday I’ll even find my true love, a partner to walk hand-in-hand.

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
When I find I don’t know where I’m headed
And my head is grasping for a hold
I try to focus on the moment
Cuz tomorrow is not in my control

VERSE 4:
Someday I’ll tell you how I feel. Someday I won’t have to hide.
Someday I might not feel so lost. Someday I’ll make up my mind.

REPEAT CHORUS 2x
Lyrics
5. Running My Life
Running My Life
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
It starts with a pleading, a cry for help,
That 2am phone call we know so well.
I’m hurt and I’m broken, unable to cope.
That’s when you help restore hope.

We’ve been there so often, you must think I’m weak,
Unable to find all the answers I seek.
So you answer for me, to help me be strong,
But I’m wondering now if you’re wrong.

CHORUS:
Don’t you tell me that you know what’s best.
I’m too smart to know what happens next.
You give me the answers; you tell me what’s right.
Then suddenly you’re running my life.

VERSE 2:
I’ve been down for months now, defeated and weak.
Is it me who is talking? Or your words I speak?
You’ve rescued me countless times, I can’t even tell
If you’re the sole reason I’m well.

For all of your input, I’m greatly in debt.
You’ve helped me move past this, and given me strength.
But now that I’m better, I’m asking from you:
Let me be my own person too.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
We’re getting too close now, you’re crossing the line.
I don’t need a mommy to make me feel fine.
Support me or lose me. I won’t change for you.
That’s the worst thing I could do.

I know you can’t see it, but I’ll really be fine.
The lessons you’ve taught me will always be mine.
…
Lyrics
6. River of Dreams
River of Dreams
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
My life is going somewhere; I just don’t know where.
I wish I new the answer, so I could try to meet it there.
The possibilities endless; so many dreams rush through my heart.
I’m trying hard to choose one, but I don’t know where to start.

CHORUS:
The answers will soon find their way to my life,
Upsetting my best laid out plans.
And when I let thoughts flow through me like water through sand,
My river of dreams will carry me away.

VERSE 2:
I feel my motivation seeping out of me.
I’m so used to this freedom, I don’t know how else to be.
I came here seeking clarity, now things are more unclear.
Perhaps that was the purpose; now it’s time to face my fear.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
I see the daylight breaking, I hear the distant call.
It’s time to make my move now, there’s no more time to stall.
The light is shining closer, the music’s playing near.
The dreams that once eluded me are now becoming clear.

REPEAT CHORUS
(Substitute: “The answers are finding their way to my life…”)
Lyrics
7. With You
With You
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I used to lay awake at night,
And wonder if I could find it.
Can I find it?
Well I’ve found it with you.

I used to fear the best was gone,
And I’d be alone forever.
Now forever…
Is happening with you.

CHORUS:
Cuz I want to be with you, run free with you.
I want to share with you, be there for you.
I want to live my life’s adventure with you.

Cuz I’d run away with you, spend each day with you,
No matter where life takes us.
Just promise me…
That I’ll always be with you.

VERSE 2:
I never knew a partner who
Could make me feel secure,
Self-assured,
But I feel that with you.

I never dreamed that love could seem
So perfect and inviting.
Now I’m writing
This love song for you.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
I tried for years, faced all my fears
To find my own way,
But today
That path lies with you.

I’ve tried concealing the way I feel
For fear of getting hurt,
But you’re worth
This chance I’m taking on you.

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
Just promise me that you’ll always…
And I’ll, promise me that I’ll always…
Promise me that you’ll always be with me.
Lyrics
8. I'd Wait for You
I'd Wait for You
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
We’ve both been in love before,
But now we’re feeling it even more.
We’ve got potential to thrive
And keep our dreams alive.

But now you question what we share.
You say the distance too much to bear.
But don’t give up on me now.
We’ll make it somehow.

CHORUS:
I’d wait a hundred years for you.
I’d dream until my dreams fell through.
I’d sing at your door ‘til you can’t take it no more.
Just to get the chance, I’d wait for you.

VERSE 2:
I know I left you far behind,
And though you think I’ve been unkind,
I thought you saw what I see.
I thought you felt just like me.

Because we stared at the road ahead,
And we weren’t scared to take the step.
If you believe that was true,
I’ll prove it to you.

REPEAT CHORUS

TRANSITION:
I’d wait for you.
Lyrics
10. Lovers Can Deceive
Lovers Can Deceive
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I look the other way, believing all you say
But now I’m finding proof, that your words aren’t the truth.

BRIDGE 1:
And I’m hesitant to believe that lovers can deceive.
The stranger’s words seem pure, but my heart can’t be sure.

CHORUS 1:
I am caught in between. Things aren’t always what they seem.
And I’m gonna have to choose who I’ll believe, and who I’ll lose.

VERSE 2:
The strangest thing of all was I trusted you so long.
Your honor truth and integrity…was it all a fucking game with me?

BRIDGE 2:
I’m needing now to know, was all that just for show?
Tell me that he’s wrong, and you were honest all along.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Now we’re face to face, and you’re denying your disgrace.
But if ditching me is your cure… well babe, your actions speak louder than words.

BRIDGE 3:
And now I’m tempted to believe that lovers can deceive.
The stranger’s words seem pure, but my heart will never be sure.

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
But you helped me make that choice, so thanks for your “honest” voice.
Lyrics
11. I Only Have Eyes for You
I Only Have Eyes for You
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
You stepped into my life, and suddenly all felt right.
Your beauty stole my heart; now I don’t wanna be apart.
When I walk into a room, I only think of you.
There’s others all around, but you’re the one I’ve found.

CHORUS:
I only have eyes for you, and nobody else will do
What you’ve done for me, and how you’ve cared for me.
You give me power to make it through.
Though I’m far away it seems, we can’t let that come between,
For if you look above and see the shooting star,
We can fol------low our dream.

VERSE 2:
When I look into your eyes, I feel a natural high.
The passion in your gaze continues to amaze me.
When we lay beneath the moon, there’s no one else but you.
The feeling from those nights is what I want for life.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
Now you’re here inside my life. How could it feel so right
To have you in my heart, even though we’re far apart.
If we’re courageous and we’re strong, and we hold on to our song,
Then faith will set us free until you’re here with me.

And just remember that…

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
… our dream… follow our dream…
follow our dream.
Lyrics
12. One Perfect Night
One Perfect Night
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I remember the night you walked into that bar.
I could see at once how beautiful you are.
You tried to play cool; I tried to play coy.
It wasn’t long before I wanted you boy.

BRIDGE 1:
And I knew… that it was hit or miss.
When I did… ask you for that kiss.

VERSE 2:
We went for a walk, we laid in the park,
We held each other in the late night dark.
We went to the mountains, walked beneath the moon.
Though it lasted all night, it ended much too soon.

BRIDGE 2:
And I knew… it even then.
That I would… see you again.

VERSE 3:
We had one perfect night, and then it was two.
Soon I realized just by being with you
That all of our moments could be as sublime.
So lets be together, baby just be mine.

Yeah come on baby now, and just be mine.

ENDING:
We’re two of the lucky ones, caught up in dream land.
So come on baby now, and take my hand.
Lyrics
13. City of Lights
City of Lights
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I got in the car this morning with a simple destination.
I’ll be there tonight, in the city of lights, to see my girl.
The journey is a long one, but I know that it is worth it.
Followin’ dreams usually seems the best way to go.

CHORUS:
And I … see … the light.
And I … know … I’m right.
Though I change my plan, I understand my choices are the right ones.
Cuz I’m free to live my life.
Yes I’m free to live my life.

VERSE 2:
I saw my girl, and I drowned in her world of beautiful song.
She played her guitar, and she sang like a star. I nearly cried.
Then I stayed up ‘til dawn sharing secrets and song with a new companion.
Though I’m s’posed to leave tomorrow, I think I’ll stay.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
I saw the sunset in Utah. I saw the moon rise in Arizona.
I saw the city of lights before me. I felt so free.
And home is far away now, but this is where I belong now,
Letting each day tell me where to go next.

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
I’ve got more to learn here.
I’ve got reasons to stay here.
I have made a friend here.
And I see the light.
Lyrics
14. Prayers Around the World
Prayers Around the World
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
That Tuesday in September is a day we’ll all remember.
The horror on the screen was like we’d never seen.
We all watched in fear. How could this be happening here?
And we sent our prayers around the world.

VERSE 2:
I can’t imagine why the innocent must die,
And why we turn to war to settle up the score.
Can’t we see that if we play their game, we’ll only cause more pain?
It’s time we sent our prayers around the world.

CHORUS:
Why’d we have to have this senseless tragedy
To make our nation’s bond increase?
Now our leaders race to retaliate in haste,
Forgetting that all we want is peace.

VERSE 3:
They may have taken our friends, but they can’t make freedom end.
They tried to make us break, but they didn’t know our strength,
Cuz now we’re here as one, recov’ring from the damages done,
And together we send our prayers around the world.

REPEAT CHORUS

Together we send our prayers around the world

ENDING: (sung over the chorus)
We’re praying for peace, that the madness will all cease.
We’re praying for health, that our neighbors will be well.
It starts with you and me to rebuild our community.

So join me, and send our prayers around the world.
Yeah together, let’s send our prayers around the world.
All we can do now is send our prayers around the world.
Lyrics
15. Tears of Love
Tears of Love
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1/2:
I sat on my bed when you left
missing your warm presence
And the emptiness of not having you near
flooded my eyes with tears… (tears of love)

I sat on my bed when you left
listening to songs you sent me
And the message of each lyric
moved me to tears… tears of love

CHORUS:
I clung the page and read each part
I felt the longing of my heart
I cried so hard my sight was blurred
I screamed for help yet no one heard

VERSE 3/4:
I sat on my bed when you left
imagining the weekend we shared
And the memories we continued to write
ignited these tears of love

I sat on my bed when you left
feeling the intensity of emotion
And the bond we grew even deeper
intensified these tears of love

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 5:
And now I sit here writing to you
reflecting on my emotional interlude
And I knowing that the tears I shed
only show how much I love you

ENDING:
Ohh… Mmm… I love you
Lyrics
16. Time for a Change
Time for a Change
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I’m sick to death of the same ol’ place.
I’m sick to death of running in place.
I try to get somewhere, but I end up nowhere.
I’m sick to death of losing this race.

CHORUS:
It’s time for a change, time for a change.
Gotta reinvent myself all over again.
It’s time for a change, leave all this pain.
Don’t wanna keep runnin’, but that is my game.

VERSE 2:
I’m tired of money ruling my life.
Paycheck to paycheck is no way to survive.
I need to go someplace where I’m happy in all ways.
I’m tired of struggling through this 9-to-5.

REPEAT CHORUS

VERSE 3:
I’m done with crying day after day.
I’m done with lying to save my face.
I need to be happy, break free from things that entrap me.
I’m done pretending that my life is OK.

REPEAT CHORUS (2x)

ENDING:
Don’t wanna keep running; Maybe this time I’ll stay.
Lyrics
17. Happy Song
Happy Song
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I…… am falling apart, and
I…… need a new start
Sometimes I don’t know where I’m going, and I don’t know where I’ve been
Sometimes I feel so lost hopeless, like I wanna just give in…

CHORUS:
Then I breathe…… I’m happy with me

VERSE 2:
I…… have suffered for so long, and
I…… know that suffering was wrong
Because I have a loving family, and I have supportive friends
So when I start to feel all lonely, like my world is gonna end…

REPEAT CHORUS:
I just breathe…… I’m happy with me

BRIDGE:
Now I see the painful struggle in so many foreign lands
And I feel the need to help them, cuz I finally understand
And I realize what this life is, all the many gifts we share
And I feel the spirit in me, and I’m feeling self-aware…

REPEAT CHORUS:
Yeah, I breathe…… I’m happy with me

VERSE 3:
I……’m beginning now to heal, and
I…… am changing how I feel
Because I’m living in the moment, and enjoying what’s for me
And now I have the power in me to not take things personally

ENDING
Yeah, I just breathe…… I’m happy with me
I’m happy with me…… happy with me…… happy with me
Lyrics
18. Here Alone
Here Alone
© 2001 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
If you say you love me, then why do you leave?
And why do you need some other?
If you say you want me, then was it a lie?
And why did you write those letters?
I guess I’m better… here alone

VERSE 2:
If you’re dreamin’ of me, why can’t you just tell me?
And why in the hell are we playin’ these games?
If you keep me dangling from your little string,
Well who do you think you’ve hurt?
You won’t be the first to leave me… here alone.

BRIDGE:
If you’re thinking of my lips, well was it worth it?
If it’s me you always miss, honey we’re old news.
If you’re lonely, and tired of only,
Well it’s hell, the choices we choose.

VERSE 3:
If you need me so much, then why deny it?
And why oh why are you pushing me away?
If you care so much, then why fight it?
You don’t have the right to keep treating me this way.

ENDING:
Maybe I can handle life… Maybe I don’t need you in my life…
I’m much better in my life… here alone
…here alone …here alone …I’ll do much better on my own
Lyrics

Apparently, 2001 was my most prolific year.  The excitement about writing songs fueled me to express about so many topics: breakups, new crushes, depression, future hopes, boundary-setting, family relationships, world peace, and longing for change. 

It's Over and Running Away are breakup songs.  Wounded was adapted from a delicate journal entry during my depression of 2000.  Everyday Is Someday and River of Dreams represent hopes for the future during those post-college years of uncertainty.  Running My Life asks for boundaries to my closest friends when their advice turned too controlling.  With You, I’d Wait for You, and I Only Have Eyes for You are love songs I was very proud of at the time.  Lovers Can Deceive was my first foray into anger, towards a lying ex-boyfriend, and Jaime said it was my best song when she heard it.  One Perfect Night is an upbeat ditty about the night I met a cute boy :)  City of Lights was written about a spontaneous road trip to Las Vegas to see Madonna, and I was proud that it came out sounding James Taylor-esque! 

Prayers Around the World marked my start of peace activism, and I played the hopeful tune at several peace rallies and gatherings right after 9/11; Danielle still talks about this song, and it always makes her cry!  Tears of Love is a gentle song adapted from an email to a boyfriend.  Time for a Change came from a place of frustration, features a cool guitar part, and hints at the coming changes that would lead me to move to California. Happy Song was written to capture my happy emotions, since I often was writing from a place of sadness or longing.  Here Alone was a mish-mash of verses from different friends to complete a breakup song I had started.

2000 Songs
1. The Romantic One
The Romantic One
© 2000 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
My friend, it’s good to see you again
You’re settled down and happy, and I hope that never ends
So why do I feel jealous, like something isn’t right?
For you it came so natural, what I’ve dreamt of all my life

CHORUS 1:
Cuz you are the domestic one who used to only play
And I am the romantic one with no one here today
I think it’s kind of crazy that I can’t have what I want
But I’m finding it’s my time to be alone

VERSE 2:
My friend, you’ve been through so much pain
But through your rocky journey, your union never waned
So why did mine end differently? I thought the bond was strong
While what you have’s not perfect, you have had it all along

CHORUS 2:
Cuz you’re the independent one who’s always had your man
And I am the romantic one who needs a helping hand
I think it’s kind of crazy that I can’t have what I want
But I’m learning now it’s best to be alone

BRIDGE:
Ahhhh Ahhhh
Ahhhh Ahhhh

VERSE 3:
My friend, I’ve always been like you
Comfortable as one, but happier as two
So why have you found love now in a partner who will last
While I just go on looking for what I cannot grasp?

CHORUS 3:
Cuz you are the romantic one, a dreamer just like me
And you have found the one for you while mine has set me free
I think it’s kind of crazy that I can’t have what I want
But I have to now accept that I’m alone

ENDING:
But I wonder when I will not be alone
Lyrics
2. I Just Wanna Be
I Just Wanna Be
© 2000 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I need a change, can’t stay the same
And I know that you don’t understand, but it’s killing me to stay where I am
I know a place where I’ll be ok
So I’m leaving here to start anew, when I get there I don’t know what I’ll do
But I know…

CHORUS:
I don’t wanna do, I just wanna be
Have a new experience, set my spirit free
I just wanna run from the corner of my mind, and see what I find
I’m not running from, I am running towards
Tackling this challenge with a graceful force
Going for this dream now will put my mind at ease, and give my soul some peace

VERSE 2:
I’ve stayed too long, and now all is wrong
Cuz this place is too familiar to me, and there’s hist’ry here I don’t want to see
I have no fear, of money or career
But it’s obvious that’s foreign to you, cuz you’re asking what I’m going to do
But I say…

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
I want to live my life in awe
I want to savor every day
I want to change and learn and grow
And now I’ve found my way

VERSE 3:
Life’s not a plan, the answers aren’t at hand
But no matter what happens inside, at least I’ll know that I tried
Cuz I said…

ENDING:
I don’t wanna do, I just wanna be
Have a new experience, set my spirit free
I’m not running from, I am running towards
Tackling this challenge, with a graceful force

Live my life in awe…
Savor every day…
Change and learn and grow…
Now I’ve found my way
Lyrics
3. Through the Years
Through the Years
© 2000 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
As angry and as hurt as you are
You should know I’ll never stray very far from you
If you give this love a chance you will see
You will never once again be betrayed by me

CHORUS:
Cuz I want you near
And I have no fear
For if we’ve shared so much through our words and our touch
We can work through all these tears
And I promise you…
We will last through the years

VERSE 2:
As hard as you may find to believe
You’ve already touched a place deep inside of me
There’s some things in this life I just know
I’d be absolutely crazy to let you go

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
If I ever do doubt you
Baby, all I have to do
Is see the look on your face, hear the words that you say
And I know your love is true (yes I do)

ENDING:
Cuz I want you near, and I have no fear
For we’ve shared so much, through our words and touch
And I won’t let go, when you tell me no
And I’m here to stay, when you… when you run away

And I can see a way through, cuz I’m in love with you
Lyrics
4. It Takes Two
It Takes Two
© 2000 Ryan Mintz

VERSE 1:
I found a man who showed me love again
I let myself fall, I gave it my all with hopes we’d never end
You worked your way in, to the soul beneath my skin
Though it was fast, I want it to last, but you’re giving in

CHORUS:
And I can show you there’s reason to believe,
but I can’t change your mind if you want to leave
It’s all up to you, you know I love you
but it takes two……… It takes two

VERSE 2:
Love’s leavin’ now, and I don’t know how
A bond this strong could not hold on to shed any doubt
What can I do? I’ve tried convincing you
If that’s not enough when things become rough, then maybe we’re through

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
It takes two to make the pact, and faith to make it last
It takes two to gain control when chaos does unfold
It takes two to understand and give with open hands
It takes two to live the dream
Yeah, it takes two……… It takes two

VERSE 3:
Now we decide to love or to die
If this is real, the love that we feel, I need you to try

REPEAT CHORUS

ENDING:
Yeah, it takes two……… me and you
Lyrics

Wow, what a feeling it was to write that first song.  It always seemed an unattainable, unfathomable art form. How does someone write a song?!  Well, the songs just started flowing out of me about 3 weeks after I first picked up a guitar in September of 2000.  For that, I thank my high school choir teacher Mr. Snyder for teaching me basic music theory, the incredible female singer-songwriters of the mid-90s who showed me the power of self-expression through music, and Jaime & Andrea for teaching me those first 4 chords! 

The Romantic One is about jealousy towards 3 of my friends in relationships while pondering my own hopes for a partner (side note: only 1 of those 3 relationships are still going today!).  I Just Wanna Be was adapted from a poem I wrote about moving to Colorado, my first time moving out of Michigan!  Through the Years and It Takes Two were bittersweet love songs about a rocky yet intense relationship.  They're written for the guy who introduced me to Indigo Girls and bought my first guitar, both of which impacted my music greatly!

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