It’s been a week of trains, cafes and rainstorms. I’m on the 3rd stop of my tour… Chicago, Illinois. It’s all going amazingly smoothly. It actually feels extremely comfortable. For the first time in months, I feel a real sense of peace. I’m just flowing through each day, each experience, each city with very little resistance or stress. It’s kinda like this is what I’m meant to be doing. Crazy, huh?
Some things are going super-well. Like, in Detroit I had 2 great shows, sold lots of CDs, met tons of cool people, appeared in 2 articles, and even got some new fans. Other things aren’t so smooth. Like in Milwaukee I played to an audience of 4 before torrential rains and tornados kept me inside the rest of the weekend. I even missed the Indigo Girls because of the storms! Grrrrr! But somehow, those should-be disappointments didn’t really phase me. I was able to halt any feelings of sorrow before they took hold, and just look forward. It’s like, I was able to step back a few thousand feet and see that it’s all part of the journey. In the scope of a 3-month tour, each show is just a learning experience, and focusing on any one of them isn’t important in the long run. So, I’ve been able to use tools like finding the positive, practicing gratitude, and really just lightening up. Maybe that set in Milwaukee was an elaborate rehearsal for the next festival when I’ll have a huge crowd. Or maybe that one guy in the front row was truly touched by my music. Or maybe those teenaged lesbians went home and bought me on iTunes.
We never know how the universe is working for us. But I’m choosing to believe it’s working in wonderful ways. It’s like, because I’m following my true path, things are unfolding exactly as they should be. I may not realize how or why right now, but there’s just a fountain of trust. I’m not questioning. I’m just believing. I’m just visualizing. I’m just creating the world I want. All of the work I’ve done on the Artist’s Way this year has actually been really monumental in getting me to this place of acceptance and trust. “Leap, and the net will appear,” the book says. Somehow I keep leaping, and I haven’t been let down yet.
Thoughts that would normally clutter my mind are remarkably kept at bay. I’m not worried about money. I’m not worried about sucking. I’m not worried about getting around. I’m just kinda going along. And I think it’s because I’m on the *right* path that my mind has been so clear and optimistic.
Who’d a thunk?
Well, the open mic at Uncommon Ground is almost over, so I’ll sign out.
Peace, love, and music…
Ry
“Maybe I wrote in invisible ink
Oh, I’ve tried to think how I could have made it appear” - Aimee Mann
The tour begins...
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